You may have noticed that most pre-natal reference materials date a pregnancy from the last day of the mother's menstrual period, which is usually two weeks earlier than actual conception. During the early weeks and months of my pre-born child's development, I will refer to the actual age of the child starting at conception.

Most of the biological details about fetal development have been copied with permission from AbortionTV.com. Reference materials are also listed at that website. Copyright 2004, No Fear Media Inc.

The pre-natal photos appearing on this website are reproduced under "fair use" terms for the purpose of public education. Although the photos can be found at many sites on the world wide web, I believe credit should be given to the Nine Month Miracle CD ROM, by A.D.A.M. Software, Inc. and the book A Child Is Born by the famous Swedish photographer Lennart Nilsson.

The experiences and stories that follow are for the benefit and enjoyment of my family and friends. They are not intended as medical facts or advice.

That night...
God has placed me in a family. I have a mother and father and brothers and sister who will love me and take care of me. Of all the families in the world, this is the perfect one for me. Thank you, God.

December 29, 2003
They don't know I am here. My parents are very concerned about my brothers' and sister's bad coughs. They would be VERY worried if they knew I was here. They might think being exposed to the whooping cough could hurt me because I am so tiny and young. I have already begun to grow, very rapidly I might add. Right now it is lots of dividing *grin*, but my body will be forming very soon.

January 6, 2004
For the first time in my life, my past several cycles have been extremely regular. I credit that to improved endocrinal health because of my supplements. I should have started a new cycle today... Hmmm? Interesting... And exciting!

January 6, 2004
I am still very, very tiny, but you would be impressed at how quickly I am developing. I can't wait for my mother to know I am here. I know she will be very excited and happy. She loves little babies.

January 7, 2004
"I'm so excited? I just can't hide it. Whaoh, whaoh, I think I like it."

Maybe I will tell my husband on my birthday. I will say he ALREADY gave me a birthday present. ROFLOL (And it will be due around HIS birthday!)

I didn't bother with a pregnancy test last time, but since my toddler has been nursing so much due to the whooping cough, and THAT might be suppressing my cycles, I better take a test just in case. I doubt I'll get to town to buy a test anytime soon, so I will probably wait until I do get a test before I tell my husband.

Here are my top pregnancy worries at this time:

January 8, 2004
It is now 14 days after conception. Usually I start feeling sick not long after implantation, but this time it is so far so good. I am going to make drinking water and taking my supplements a priority. I hope my brother and sister-in-law don't mind me being pregnant as well. They are having their first baby, and I wouldn't want to take away any of their glory. I don't think they are that kind of people. I think they would like for the baby to have a cousin almost the same age. At Christmas, everyone was discussing the fact that another family member will be celebrating Christmas with us next year. I wonder what they will think when they find out there will be TWO! I hope our announcement doesn't hurt relatives who have never conceived a child, especially since we already have three children. I feel bad for them. I also wonder if I'll get annoying reactions from some people, "What, FOUR CHILDREN?!!"

January 8, 2004

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!" Psalm 139:13-17 NIV

January 9, 2004
Today is my birthday. I had hoped to get pregnant at 34. I am glad it is already happening. With our second pregnancy, we made the announcement to our families only 15 days after his conception - the same age as this baby is now! I took a pregnancy test on Christmas morning 1997 to be sure. We asked our first child to tell everyone. We waited until six weeks after our daughter's conception so it would also be announced on Christmas (2000), and our two year old son told the news about the baby that time. I wonder when we should tell everyone this time. Hmmm? I do feel like there is something going on inside, but it is unusual that I don't feel the least bit sick.

I telephoned the local medical supplies store this morning to see if they had any stethoscopes for sale. I asked about a Doppler, but they are $1000, so a fetal stethoscope will have to do. I intend to buy it with my birthday money. We borrowed a regular stethoscope when I was pregnant with our second son, and we enjoyed it thoroughly. I want the older children to be able to participate as much as possible in the baby's development.

January 10, 2004
I still have not taken a test, but even though it is so early, I would say I am pregnant. So far, my only symptoms are an occasional grinding kind of feeling in my lower abdomen and the absence of a new cycle.

January 12, 2004
I am 18 days old today. My nervous system has begun to develop!

January 15, 2004
I thought it was good that I haven't felt any morning sickness, but I read this morning, that "the high levels of pregnancy hormones that contribute to nausea also suggest a well-implanted embryo." (The Pregnancy Book - Sears) NOW I feel sick. Not with morning sickness, but with WORRY. I found sources online that agreed with that statement, but one of my books said that nausea generally doesn't start until week six after conception, and another book didn't even suggest that the absence of nausea was a concern. My health encyclopedia says that some women do not experience morning sickness. I had been thinking that I felt good because of my improved health, nutritional supplements, and increased intake of water, but now I want morning sickness.

January 15, 2004
I am three weeks old. Even though I am only about the size of a raisin, an incredible thing happened today. My heart began to beat! My first blood vessels have appeared. The foundation for my brain, spinal cord, and peripheral nervous system and rudiments of my eyes are formed. The placenta began functioning. Limb buds, the beginnings of my little arms and legs, are forming.

"As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things." Ecclesiastes 11:5 NIV

January 17, 2004
BEFORE - Finally, I had the opportunity to buy a pregnancy test at a drug store this afternoon. I am going to go take it right now. I am very nervous. What if I'm NOT pregnant??!! Oh, no!! I would be so disappointed.

AFTER - I am pregnant!! I am pregnant!! And I am soooooo excited! You could say I am tickled pink, the same color as the two lines on my pregnancy test. YAY!! Now I will wait for the right time to tell my husband.


I guess I am idiot to wish I had morning sickness, but I will have to settle for an intermittent painless crampy feeling for the time being. I hope that is enough of a sign that the baby has implanted well.

January 17, 2004
My mother knows for sure that I am here!! I am so glad she is happy. Sometimes mothers are scared and don't want a little baby to grow inside them. I wish there was a window on the womb so mothers could watch the growth and development of their unborn children. Maybe that would help them learn to love them. Even though seeing the reality of their growing children would help, I think the rejection or support of their partners is the biggest factor in influencing how these young mothers feel about being pregnant.

January 17, 2004
I was anxious to tell my husband, but I felt it was important to wait for the right opportunity. That came this evening when we were sitting on the sofa by the fireplace. My heart was pounding, and I prayed,


He was looking at his new 2004 calendar, going through each month. When he eventually came to September, I suggested that he circle the 18th. He looked at me, and being a pretty smart cookie, clued in right away. He handled it well, and just like I expected, we discussed the money thing, which he made clear was his only issue. When I mentioned that the baby's heart started beating yesterday, he smiled, and I knew he was okay. My family (in particular, my mother and grandmother) will have a fit when they find out that I was pregnant even before we knew the children had the whooping cough. I am sure that would have worried them.

January 19, 2004
I am sure that another grandchild would be welcome on both sides of the family, especially if I am as cute as my brothers and sister. Some extended families do not welcome children and express disapproval when a couple has more than two or three children. Lots of people think that people should be satisfied with a boy and a girl, and why would anyone want more?! Some folks think it is okay to try for a girl if you have two boys, but if you get another boy, that's enough! (and visa versa) I am glad my parents don't feel that way. I am glad they want me. I can't wait for Mommy and Daddy to tell my brothers and sister I am here. They will be so excited!

January 19, 2004
When I was expecting my first child, my pregnancy was on my mind around the clock. I know my husband grew tired of hearing about it. During my next two pregnancies, the experiences were not as new, but it WAS just as exciting. Even with my fourth, I feel the desire to talk about my experiences. Blogging about my pregnancy is a great outlet. It is nice to have people listen to me and share my joys and concerns. I do talk about the baby to my toddler, and I wonder if she will be the one to let the cat out of the bag. She says she will share her milky - the baby will have one side and she will have the other. She says she will share her toys and play with the baby. She loves to talk about it.

January 22, 2004
It is now four weeks after conception. Circulation to and from the placenta has begun. The placenta is a very special, amazing organ that connects my circulatory system with my mother's. The placenta is so important to me that it was being prepared almost as soon as I was conceived. The placenta works like your lungs, your digestive system, and your kidneys work, all at once. My mother shelters me, and her blood makes nutrients and oxygen available to me, but her blood and my blood, can never mix. My mother's lungs, digestive system, and her kidneys can't take care of me - I have to do that independently, through the placenta. The placenta filters oxygen out of my mother's blood into my blood, just the way your lungs take oxygen out of the air and into your blood. It also gathers nutrition for me, the same way your digestive system gathers nutrition from the food you eat. And lastly, the placenta sifts waste out of my blood, like your kidneys take waste out of your blood.

My kidneys are developed, but soon they will begin to function, and share this work with the placenta. My internal organs are growing. My tongue, esophagus and stomach are well developed, and my liver, gall bladder, and pancreas have been developing for several days. My lungs have begun to develop. My thyroid and other glands are forming.

I have hands with ridges that will grow into fingers, and two-segmented arms! I also have feet, thighs, and calves. I am so excited that my little face and sensory organs are forming. I have eyes, including a retina that already has color, as well as ears, a nose, and mouth!! Mommy wonders if I will be a blue-eyed baby like my nearest-in-age brother and sister or a brown-eyed baby like my older brother. Even my reproductive organs are beginning to form. I want to be a parent some day! I know I would love having babies.

Unborn Baby
approximately 4 weeks after conception

January 23, 2004
Today and yesterday, I began to feel the tiredness that comes along with the first trimester of pregnancy.

January 28, 2004
I have begun to feel "blah" this week. When I tell my husband, he says, "That's great!" (He was worried because I was worried I had no morning sickness.)

Are you supposed to gain five pounds during the first five weeks of pregnancy?

January 29, 2004
I am five weeks old. My facial features are visible, including my mouth and tongue. My eyes have a retina and lens. My major muscle system is developed, and I already practice moving! I have my very own blood type, distinct from my mother's. My blood cells are produced by the liver now, instead of the yolk sac. My brain is dividing into more specialized segments. I hope my mother takes essential oils for my brain development.

January 30, 2004
Although I didn't mention our already growing baby, I asked my younger son if he would like a new baby brother or sister. He wants a little brother, and he was pleased to imagine all the things they would do together. My daughter wants a baby sister with blue eyes, just like her. Only one of them will have their wish come true. My husband says girls are easier, and I agree. They also get to wear prettier clothes.

I always wished all my children would have both sisters and brothers - so how does that add up? At least three boys and three girls, right?! I am glad we have had the privilege of raising both because boys and girls sure are different. I can't imagine being like my great-grandmother who gave birth to ten boys and no girls.

I bought the fetal stethoscope today. It has an unusual attachment on it, with a flute shape on one end and a rounded handle thing on the other. I don't know why it is made like that, but I can hear my own heartbeat just fine. It was fun talking to the storekeeper about being pregnant. I can't wait to tell my mother.

January 31, 2004
I guess I am starting to cause my mother a little trouble. She doesn't feel very well. I can't help it. I am doing the best I can. My mother's body has to work very hard to help me grow. I can't wait to see her and show her I love her.

January 31, 2004
I am depressed. I feel like my whole house is so unorganized. I don't know how I will get things together by September, especially if I feel as lousy as I do now. I wish some creative thoughts would wander into my mind. I want to rearrange and paint the bedroom and get rid of even more stuff that we don't need. Decluttering always makes me feel better, but I have to actually feel good enough to do it in the first place. Blah.

February 2, 2004
I have been inspired. Now I just have to find the energy to follow through. My husband already helped me rearrange three dressers, and we decided on the colors to use to redecorate the master bedroom. My next tasks involve thoroughly going through the children's used clothing to be more selective in what I keep and what I get rid of. That will probably take several days.

I plan to sell our canopy crib, bedding, and accessories. I figure if my first three babies never slept in it, then why would I use it for my fourth? I did use it as a change table for the first few months each time, but always ended up doing diapers on the floor. It is funny when I recall my expectations as an inexperienced mother-to-be. Nobody could have convinced me that I shouldn't bother with the expensive, frilly canopy crib. I would have said, "Huh? Of course I need a crib!?" Little did I know how things would not turn out like I planned, and for that I am thankful. It was also during my pre-baby days that I thought fussy babies existed due to a lack of proper mothering. Did I ever learn THAT the hard way!

February 3, 2004
At only 40 days old, my brain waves can be detected by an electroencephalogram (EEG). Whether brain activity begins at this time or merely becomes detectable at this time is uncertain; it is known that neural connections begin forming as soon as neurons begin forming, as early as 14 days gestation. I have a palate (inside of the mouth and tongue), complete with tiny tooth buds. My face is nearly finished forming and looks reasonably human, though lacking the muscles needed for facial expressions like smiling or frowning. I am beginning to move. These early movements are important to the development of healthy muscles.

February 4, 2004
I have gone through every one of our many Rubbermaid containers full of clothing, from baby items to my oldest son's latest outgrown clothes. I took another load of summer things to the used clothing store yesterday, and I have a huge pile of winter things to take there next summer. The storage closet is much more accessible now. And I don't care how crazy it is that I put my maternity clothes in my closet already.

February 5, 2004
I will miss not being able to tell my great aunt about the new baby. She would have been so pleased. She was one of the few people I have known who loved babies as much as I do. There is a difference. It is a whole different attitude and heart feeling. Many people like children (at least their own), but don't have that intensity. Some people may think they do, but their actions prove otherwise. My aunt would never have thought or said, "What, FOUR children?!" She wouldn't blink if I had ten! She would just talk about her babies and my babies and what a blessing they are. I wish more people were like her.



Unborn Baby
6 weeks after conception

Unborn Baby
6 weeks after conception
(2 months pregnancy)

"Years ago, while giving an anesthetic for a ruptured tubal pregnancy (at two months) I was handed what I believed to be the smallest human being ever seen. The embryo sac was intact and transparent. Within the sac was a tiny human male, swimming extremely vigorously in the amniotic fluid, while attached to the wall by the umbilical cord. The tiny human was perfectly developed, with long, tapering fingers, feet and toes. It was almost transparent as regards to the skin, and the delicate arteries and veins were prominent to the ends of the fingers. The baby was extremely alive and did not look at all like the photos and drawings of 'embryos', which I have seen. When the sac was opened, the tiny human immediately lost its life and took on what is accepted as the appearance of an embryo at this stage, blunt extremities, etc." Paul E. Rockwood, M.D.

February 6, 2004
With each pregnancy, I feel the presence of life much earlier. This morning before I got up, I was lying still on my back for several minutes, cupping my uterus with my hand. It is probably almost the size of a grapefruit. I certainly did not expect to feel movement, at only six weeks after conception, but I DID!! I have no doubt I could feel that inch and a half little monkey, swimming in my womb. The movements came directly from the area cupped by my hand. Is this possible?!

February 7, 2004
Today we get to share our joy with the world!

I finally get to put all my posts online! Bravo if you are still reading (I know most of you are skimming!), but thanks for your support. I would love to hear your thoughts about our little baby number four, so please email me! I would also really appreciate it if you sent me your favorite pregnancy and prenatal websites. Send me links about everything from fetal development to baby gadgets!

February 9, 2004
After lunch on Saturday, we lined up the children on the love seat and while my husband video taped them, I told the news about their new little brother or sister. They were very pleased. My older son said he was shocked, but he figured he should have put the clues together and guessed. I showed them pictures of what the little baby looks like right now, and explained that he or she was growing in my womb. There were smiles from ear to ear.Then I called my sister to tell her about the baby since I knew she couldn't come home this weekend. She had dreamed about me having a baby this year. She says it will be a girl and that she had guessed right about my first three. I figure if my brother and sister-in-law have a girl, we will have a boy.

My mother hosted a Valentine's Tea Party on Saturday afternoon. She and my father, the five of us, as well as my grandparents, aunt, and my husband's parents attended. The children had been looking forward to it for weeks, and I was excited about the opportunity to share our news when most of the family was gathered together. I was wondering if we would even get in the door before one of the children hinted about the baby. I tried to get my little daughter to make the announcement, but with all eyes upon her, she shyly put her head in my shoulder. My younger son told everybody, and then they opened their announcements. My daughter HAD mentioned it to Nana and Papa a few days before. Everyone was excited.

That night at bedtime, my daughter set up her new little tea set next to her pillow, and she and I had a late night tea party. She says she has a baby in her tummy, too. She even held a teacup up to my bellybutton and then her bellybutton, so the babies could share. She took her little flashlight and aimed it at my bellybutton and looked closely saying, "Oh, she looks so sweet! Her little ear's stickin' out! See her little ear!?"

Yesterday, we all went to my grandmother's for a delicious turkey dinner. When we got home, my daughter and I had a nap while my husband took the boys on the snowmobile. Last night, the boys decided to try to come up with a name. My husband called out names from a baby book. I wasn't impressed. We all determined it was going to be a difficult job, even though my younger son was more than willing to give the baby HIS name, so he could have the name Scooby-Doo! This morning he asked me, "Are you going to name the baby my name?" When I told him no, he said, "Are we going to just throw it out?" (This is not because he dislikes his name, but rather because he LOVES Scooby-Doo).


February 10, 2004
My younger son (I mean Scooby-Doo) and my daughter were playing last night. My daughter would put her favorite "little guys" in her shirt and pretend she was having babies. My son told me she was "hatching" them. I laughed, but he was half right since one was her Tweety Bird!

February 11, 2004
It has been inspiring to follow my friends' exericising progress since they began doing it last fall. Well, not inspiring enough for me to get off my butt, but I've been impressed as I see how they have changed. Ya know what they do?! They exercise! And they are doing great! I've been through three pregnancies, and I know how much energy and work it takes to get the little tykes born, so as usual, it takes a pregnancy for me to start exercising. I know by my lack of cardiovascular fitness, that I must make this a priority. Of course it is good for the baby, but I am doing it for more selfish reasons as I want to have a smooth birth, just like my first three.

Now, it is still a mystery to me that people pretend they LIKE to exercise. And they say they feel BETTER after they exercise. And they even look forward to it! Not me. Never been there, never felt that way. Maybe I have never actually kept at it long enough. I don't know. My husband's parents renovated their basement, and gave us their old exercise machine. We also have their old stationery bike. So, for the past few days, I have spent 10 minutes, twice a day, on the stair master, peck thingy, leg thingy, and bike. That does me in. I huff and puff, down a glass of water, and try to make it to the bed for a rest. Since the weather has been so much warmer - freezing or above. I have also taken the children outside each day and trudged around the snowmobile trail in our back woods, pulling my daughter on her sled! Fresh air AND exercise!

February 13, 2004
I have to clean the house today, even if it kills me. And it just might... Who needs exercise?

February 19, 2004
It is now 8 weeks after conception. My heart is almost completely developed and very much resembles that of a newborn baby. An opening in the atrium of the heart, and the presence of a bypass valve divert much of the blood away from my lungs, as my blood is oxygenated through the placenta. Twenty tiny baby teeth are forming in my gums! My genital area is sensitive to touch. My eyelids are beginning to form. My movements are now considered to be voluntary rather than reflexive.

February 28, 2004
It is between 9 and 10 weeks after conception. I can touch my own face! I can even suck my thumb! Maybe I will continue to suck my thumb after I am born, just like my brother! I make breathing and swallowing motions. The palms of my hands and the soles of my feet are sensitive to touch. My sense of smell has begun to develop. I can urinate. And I even experience hiccups!! I move almost constantly. I can step, kick, somersault, stretch, and move my arms. It is so wonderful to be alive!

March 4, 2004
It is now ten weeks after conception. My mother's pregnancy is considered to be 12 weeks or 3 months, which means she is starting the second trimester.

Unborn Baby Feet
10 weeks after conception

My vocal chords are complete, and I can and sometimes do cry (silently). My mommy would like to comfort me when I cry. My brain is fully formed, and I can feel pain. My eyelids now cover my eyes, and will remain shut until the seventh month to protect the delicate optical nerve fibers. Here are several ultrasound photos at various ages. Look for me at ten weeks!

Ultrasound 10 weeks

March 4, 2004
Pregnancy... Hmmm... You just don't feel the same. I think I 'm going to have to increase my supplements. They must be all going to the baby... All I want to do is eat and sleep... Chocolate... Ohhh.... I had the hardest time walking by the ice cream at the grocery store last night. I even read some of the labels - chocolate and peanut butter fudge sounded sooooo good. I want to snack ALL the time. I guess I have to go make supper. Just thinking about preparing raw meat makes me sick, although I will certainly eat it when it's cooked.

March 11, 2004
Here is an update regarding my growth between 11 and 13 weeks after conception. My bone marrow has begun to produce white blood cells. My external reproductive organs are visibly male or female; prior to this month, they looked too similar to tell apart at a glance. My family would love to know if I am a boy or girl, but I can keep the secret for the next several months! The inner parts of my ear are formed, and I may be able to hear. The bones undergo "ossification" -- they become hard, like an adult's bones, whereas they had previously been soft. My face continues to mature, and by the end of the 3rd month, I have unique, individual facial features. Mommy expects me to look like my siblings since they certainly resemble each other. I can't wait to see them, but I know I will certainly HEAR them lots as the months go on! My sense of smell and sense of taste develop gradually between 9 and 13 weeks. Many chemical compounds and products of my mother's diet cross the placenta, providing me with a changing range of tastes and smells. Research shows that unborn babies will swallow more amniotic fluid when a sweet taste is present than when a sour taste is introduced to the womb. I will have a hard time staying away from sugar, just like my mother.

Unborn Baby Feet
11 weeks after conception


Unborn Baby
12 weeks after conception

March 11, 2004
Within a very short time after I began blogging about my pregnancy, there was a tremendous increase in the amount of hits my site received regarding unborn babies. There have been many searches wondering about the development of the unborn, and the length of time these people have spent at my baby blog is surprising. It is exciting to think that perhaps the photos and descriptions of the various stages of pre-natal life may actually convince young mothers who are suffering with the pain of an unwanted pregancy to choose life.

If you are a young woman, facing a crisis pregnancy, I can't imagine how scary it must be. If your life circumstances are such that you feel you want to end your pregnancy, please find help at a crisis pregnancy center. There IS hope.

Even if you are alone, struggling with this pain, there ARE caring people out there who will help. If you can just cope a little longer, you will be ever so thankful you chose to let your baby live. You CAN handle this. You ARE strong enough.




March 30, 2004
For a while now, I have been able to feel my womb shifting, and I can tell there is life inside, but no distinguishable little bumps and thumps. Last night was the first time that I could actually lay my hand on the baby and feel lots of activity. Baby was very busy, and it so incredible to think of the tiny little one just inside, out of sight. It would be so interesting to be able to watch what the baby is doing, but I am happy to finally be able to feel the movements. This happened at 11:30 PM, so I hope it is not a sign of what baby will be doing at that time of night next fall! I understand that mothers who have had previous pregnancies feel movement much earlier than first-time mothers. At 15 weeks pregnant, it IS pretty early, but I could definitely feel the little one jumping around. It is only 13 weeks since conception.

April 1, 2004
My mother's pregnancy is considered to be 16 weeks, but my actual age is 14 weeks. I am strong enough to kick her! My mother is happy to be able to tell when I am playing now. As a 14-week old unborn child, I can experience pleasure and happiness or displeasure and fear. I can be startled, and my heart rate increases by loud unpleasant noises.

April 1, 2004
When a needle for amniocentesis (a method of prenatal testing for genetic anomalies) is introduced into the uterus, the fetus will react. Different fetuses react differently to this experience. Some kick or punch at the needle, some grab it, some shy away. During fetal blood transfusion, a 590% rise in beta endorphin and a 183% rise in cortosol have been documented in the fetus. The presence of both of these hormones in such high levels, as a response to a stimulus, is chemical evidence of pain. Fetuses respond in a variety of ways to amniocentesis, from shying away from the needle to kicking at it. The variety of responses in different fetuses of the same age to the same experience seems to indicate that these responses are not instinctual, but individual responses of fear, curiosity or aggression. A fetus will experience fluctuations in heart rate during and immediately following amniocentesis, and breathing motion patterns may not stabilize for days. These emotional responses, taking place before the limbic system is fully formed and long before the cerebral cortex, thought to be responsible for conscious thought, is completed, are further evidence that the brain is functioning long before its individual structures are complete.

If little ones are that scared of pre-natal testing, I can only imagine the terror that a tiny little innocent child feels as a noisy vacuum enters the sanctuary of the womb to violently rip him or her apart. May God help his or her young mother cope with her crisis pregnancy so there will NOT be one dead and one wounded by abortion.

April 1, 2004
At 14 weeks after conception, it can be scientifically demonstrated that I can hear and react to sound. Each unborn baby at this age displays individual personality.

April 1, 2004
Vision, while well developed in premature infants, cannot be readily tested in the womb. It has been demonstrated, however, that the fetus reacts to light with an acceleration in heart rate. Reactive listening has been demonstrated through research at 14 weeks gestational age, approximately 8 weeks before the ear is structurally complete. Researchers in Belfast demonstrated this by beaming a pure pulse sound into the womb at various gestational ages; a visible reaction was first demonstrated by the fetuses and observed by ultrasound at 14 weeks. Other studies have demonstrated that a five-second auditory stimulus can cause a change in heart rate that lasts up to an hour.

Anecdotal evidence for prenatal learning abounds. A professional cellist and conductor found to his amazement that he knew the cello part to several pieces perfectly -- despite having never seen the music before. His mother, also a professional cellist, had practiced those pieces while pregnant. Twins appear to learn patterns of interaction that they carry with them throughout their lives. In one case "brother and sister were seen playing cheek-to-cheek on either side of the dividing membrane. At one year of age, their favorite game was to take positions on opposite sides of a curtain, and begin to laugh and giggle as they touched each other and played through the curtain." Some parents claim to have taught their unborn children to kick on request, but using verbal association when the baby kicks on his or her own.

Research into prenatal learning and other facets of prenatal awareness often simply confirm what many parents believed already, that it is possible to interact with a child before birth. A study by Donald Shelter, professor of education at the University of Rochester's Eastman School of Music, shows that fetuses are also capable of remembering a wordless tune. This study also gives evidence to the positive effects of prenatal exposure to complex rhythms. In this study a stereo earphone system was placed directly on the mother's abdomen, allowing the fetuses to list to orchestral music with a single dominant melody. After two years, most of the thirty participants were able to recognize that melody. In addition, these children showed very advanced speech ability. The positive effect of this experiment on its subjects suggests that prenatal teaching is not only possible but beneficial. This research provides conclusive evidence to prenatal learning taking place in the second and third trimesters. However, little research appears to have been done on the possibility of learning earlier than 14 weeks and the onset of hearing. This is most likely due to the difficulty in providing other sorts of stimuli, and also of measuring the very young fetus's response. However, the developmental pattern present in the senses and other organs indicates that the brain may be functioning very early in pregnancy. Voluntary motion and emotional responses to stimuli indicate that the fetus is to some degree conscious. It seems likely that learning can and does take place from very early in gestation.

April 29, 2004
I can't believe I am half-way there! 20 weeks!!

April 29, 2004
At 18 weeks after conception (20 week pregnancy), I can hear and recognize my mother's voice. Though still small and fragile, I am growing rapidly and could possibly survive if born at this stage. I have fingernails and fingerprints. Using an ultrasound device, a doctor could tell you whether I am a girl or a boy.

"This is what the LORD says--your Redeemer who formed you in the womb: I am the LORD, who has made all things, who alone stretched out the heavens, who spread out the earth by myself." Isaiah 44:24 NIV

Unborn Baby
20 weeks after conception
(22 week pregnancy)

Pro-Life

The aborted baby has burn marks from the chemical abortion procedure. It is not just the child who suffers from the choice of abortion.


May 25, 2004
The other day, my younger son, looking very pleased and excited, said to me, "You're getting fatter every second, with that baby in there!"

Here is a little baby who was born premature at 21 weeks, even smaller than my baby is now. The nurse's wedding band is on the baby's arm.


Baby Born at 21 weeks



June 8, 2004
We had fun last night taking turns listening to the baby's heartbeat with the fetal stethoscope. We also watched the baby roll and kick. Everyone is anxious for the baby "to get out". I worry about coping with the long, humid, hot summer.

June 11, 2004
With this pregnancy, I have days that I can go non-stop from morning until night, and then there are days when climbing the stairs makes me want to lie down. My ten-year-old is very helpful with chores around the house. He voluntarily takes on the job of cleaning up the kitchen, and I often see him sweeping the floor. He willingly helps out whenever he sees me stressed out because of a mess. It would be wise if I always remembered to ask the children to help BEFORE I feel overwhelmed.

My five-year-old doesn't tend to think to clean up on his own, but will help whenever I ask. He knows that when he gets out a toy, he has to put it back. My two-year-old usually needs help to pick up her things, but that is understandable, and I certainly can relate to feeling overwhelmed by a chore. The house still gets out of hand on a daily basis, but everything can usually look shipshape after an hour of teamwork. All three of them can get their own snacks, and the boys can get their own breakfast and lunch if they want to. I sometimes worry about the last month of pregnancy and first month following the birth, but then I remember that the children really do care about me, and want to positively contribute to our family culture. My husband has always done more around the house than I could ever expect. It is great that I can count on my family.


June 15, 2004
I went grocery shopping last night, and it was the first time somebody acknowledged that I am pregnant (outside of family and close friends). I guess I'm starting to look (and feel) like Aunt Marge (HP#3).

June 16, 2004
Eight Ways to Increase the Safety and Comfort of Childbirth

June 25, 2004
The days are going too quickly! I am not ready!! I have so many things I want to do before the baby is born, but I can't always get my pregnant body to do what my mind insists needs to be done. With only July and August and a few days in June and September left, I am getting worried. Yikes!

June 29, 2004
A new type of ultrasound scan has produced vivid pictures of a 12 week-old fetus "walking" in the womb. There are more amazing ultrasound pictures here showing unborn babies as young as eight weeks. Click the blue arrows for all ten photos.

Speaking about these new recordings John Smeaton, National Director of England's Society for the Protection of Unborn Children (SPUC), said: "These pictures are a wonderful reminder of the fact that the unborn child is a living human being. These pictures are of babies as young as 12 weeks' gestation, the age at which a large percentage of abortions are carried out in this country. Tragically, unborn children such as these are killed at a rate of one every three minutes." Perhaps this new technology will help people see the truth.

July 6, 2004
For the first time during my pregnancy, I got out my "pregnant Barbie" for the children to enjoy. My daughter was utterly thrilled. She and her brother thoroughly enjoyed getting the baby born over and over again.


My ten-year-old took this picture
of me (and the baby) today.

Looking forward to the new baby

One of the jobs we have planned to do before the baby arrives is paint our bedroom. I also want to replace all the pictures with new black and white ones.

July 14, 2004
Pregnancy 'makes women live longer'

July 14, 2004
I had my third pre-natal appointment this week. I gave the doctor my birth plan. It is almost identical to last time around, so I expect the same cooperation from the doctor and nurses.

I asked her to locate the placenta, and I am pleased that it is in a good place. I would only consider having an ultrasound if the placenta was blocking the baby's exit (or another obvious complication). This is not the only article I've read about the dangers of ultrasound, especially repeated scans. I have not had an ultrasound for any of my four children.

I also asked her to confirm the baby's position which I have noticed is head down because of where I feel the hiccups. I am happy with that as well.

July 23, 2004
Preferred hand 'set in the womb'
Isn't it interesting how a "product of conception" or "blob of tissue" is already right-handed or left-handed?!

July 23, 2004
Today, My mother hosted a tea party baby shower for me and the little one. Both my grandmothers were there, along with my aunt, my sister, and the children. The men took their food to the porch.



Along with some adorable clothes, Nana gave me the baby sling I searched for all year. After the experience of carrying three children in several different slings, and trying others, I knew exactly what I wanted. For me, the #1 factor in choosing a sling is to make sure it has rings. Rings help me adjust the material and the baby in the exact postion I want, at any stage of baby's development. The second thing I wanted was for the sling to be thin without padding. This sling is as thin and light as can be. The rings are the heaviest part! I also like the color, and it has two features which I have never tried before - a larger tail to make nursing perfectly discreet, and a pocket to hold keys, my wallet, or even a diaper! Since I wear my babies in slings for several hours each day, I consider it a very important decision. A sling is undoubtedly my (and baby's) favorite baby item!


She is wearing one of the baby's new undershirts and bibs that don't quite fit her size 5 little body! I have a surprise for her when she comes to see the baby after it is born - her own matching doll sling!

July 30, 2004
Research finds that Infants Need Mother's Gaze for Neural Development

July 30, 2004
We have done many things this summer, but contrary to popular opinion, I don't come close to mentioning everything. I am also finding the high humidity to be rather uncomfortable, and I lack the energy that I desire. I am worried about my endurance and strength for the birth. Today I started using one of the boy's hopper balls as my computer seat, to practice for my birth position. If I can handle blueberry picking during the next couple of weeks, that will also be a great help. I must remember to squat more when I sit and practice relaxing every part of me. That sounds easy, but I always have something clenched - usually my teeth.

Due to an unexpected and unusual burst of energy, I put everything in its place on the main floor, and I even tidied the upstairs today. The children helped as usual. My ten-year-old always prefers to take on the kitchen mess while we fuss with everything else. Then we went outside, and I removed junk from the sandbox. We need to get some fresh new sand.

I would like to have a yard sale because I have two large items (along with lots of small things) that I want to sell. Maybe I could earn some money towards a new digital camera. Ours has spent the past two months slowly dying, and finally, this week, it has perished. How can I blog??? How can I scrapbook??? How can I have a new baby without a digital camera??? ACK!!!

The baby is growing well and measures slightly bigger than my dates, but still appears to be the smallest of my four at this stage. One thing that scares me is that this baby seems to be much more active than my first three. Traumatic memories of my first colicky baby make me wonder if the commotion in my womb is a sign of a rough journey ahead, but I pray it just means a smart, healthy baby. The activity reminds me of Jacob and Esau fighting in the womb, but I am sure I have only ONE baby!

August 2, 2004
I just thought I would mention that I am happy with the names we have chosen for our new baby. Whether the baby is a boy or a girl, I am looking forward to naming our baby. Lots of syllables and lots of character. *grin*

August 6, 2004
This morning, my baby nephew came back for a visit, and I took advantage of the opportunity to try out my new sling. I popped him right in, and he sat up as cute as a button, as comfy as anything. It could be just a month until my baby moves from my belly into my arms (and my new sling).

August 20, 2004
The baby is very active. I get lots of knee jabs and kicks. Limbs seem to almost poke through at every angle. My whole belly can flop from side to side in a big whallup. I am thankful the baby's head is still down, and I feel arm stretches and hi-speed hiccups lower down. My daughter was 11 days early!

August 20, 2004
On Thursday evening, My husband and I tended the Right to Life booth at the Exhibition. This is something I have been actively involved in since I was 14 years old. I help educate people of all ages about the biological facts of human fetal development, as well as the reality of human abortion. People are often surprised to learn that due to a lack of a law in Canada, abortion is legal, from conception until partial birth, for any reason, paid for by our tax dollars.

When people stop by our booth, it is a pleasure to show the little children what they looked like before they were born. Together, we wonder if they sucked their thumbs. Can they swim as well now as they did when they lived in their mothers' wombs? Pregnant mothers flock to view the fetal models and photographs showing the development of their unborn babies. I ask the teenagers if they know about abortion. Most of them want to see what abortion looks like, so I show them the truth. This is something they do NOT learn in school or on TV. They are anxious to share what they learn with their friends and classmates, and perhaps spare a girl or two from the haunting trauma of abortion.

When my husband and I arrived at the booth last night, we took over the shift from a middle aged mother of five. You could say "six children", if you count the reason she helps at the booth. At sixteen, she was deceived and coerced into believing abortion was the answer to her crisis pregnancy. She, like many other abortion survivors, speaks out in an effort to save young women from the pain and violence of having their unborn children ripped from their wombs.

No matter how tragic or painful it is for a woman facing a crisis pregnancy, it does not change the biological fact that what she is carrying inside her womb has human blood, and human cartilage, unique fingerprints, and unique DNA. The woman may be between a rock and a hard place, but her choice will be on her heart for the rest of her life. You may believe in a woman's "right to choose", but in reality, when a woman chooses abortion, she feels she has no choice. She is lacking support, perhaps emotional, perhaps financial. She is facing a partner or parents who have threatened to abandon her if she doesn't "get rid of it". She is overwhelmed and in complete desperation. Choosing to abort the child in her womb does not solve her problem. It creates a new nightmare that never goes away.

When I sit at the booth, I hear story after story of how pregnancy and abortion deeply affect the lives of men, women, and children. People want to tell me all about the joys and sorrows that are part of their life experiences. People excitedly tell about the new baby that will soon be born into their family. Those facing crisis pregnancies are given information about where they can find help. People tell me about their amazing premature births, their unforgettably painful miscarriage experiences, and the tragic heartbreak of their past abortions. It is precious to hear the thankfulness coming from the hearts of those who faced crisis pregnancies and chose life. I am there to listen and to educate people, who turn around and ask, "Why didn't anybody ever tell me the truth about this before?"

August 22, 2004


The big brothers and big sister (and mother)
are anxious to get this baby out!


Only 24 days till my due date!
Will he or she arrive early or late?

Here are the children heading to the river this morning.



September 5, 2004
Baby is still growing strong. The kicks and jabs often make me say, "Ouch!" I tell everyone if they want to know how I feel, then have someone jump on their bladder for a while, and then pick up my younger son (45 pounds or so) and carry him around day and night. And if you want to be able to breathe, don't lie on your back. Having a growing little being under your heart never ceases to be an incredibly amazing experience. Mothers are truly blessed and honored with this privilege.

I gain the same amount of weight with every pregnancy, and each time, I lose everything except the last couple of pounds. With every baby, it takes a month or two longer for me to lose the weight, but it has always happened in less than a year. I don't work at it, I just breastfeed.

I would sincerely appreciate your prayers for some concerns that have come up. Specifically, the health of the baby during the first 24 hours to one week, strength for an efficient labor and delivery, and wisdom for me to handle the medical staff.


September 7, 2004
I had what could be my last pre-natal appointment today. I discussed "the issue" with the doctor, and she seemed to respect my position. Lots of research, lots of prayer, and lots of verses made the appointment go well. I have increased my supplements greatly, and have added several other natural health measures. Your prayers would still be appreciated.

During each pre-natal appointment, I notice the various people leaving the doctor's office. You can often see the heavy weight of stress on these people, and sometimes even tears. They need to know they have a choice with actual scientific studies behind it. People don't have to use drugs to treat everything. There IS a healthy alternative that works to help the body heal itself - not just treat the symptoms. Email me for more information.

Grandma watched the children, and kindly brought some food for my freezer to be used after delivery. The children and I had sandwiches for supper outside on a blanket this evening. My husband is working late again. Then I helped them play some running/action games from my spot in the hammock under the treehouse. They had fun.

Every time I sit in the hammock, my daughter eats green or yellow beans from the garden and cuddles half on me, saying, "Goo-goo". She pretends she is the new baby.

My ten-year-old dreamed the other night that we named the baby Jeremiah (never considered), so the dream contest is on. He dreamed it was a boy, and my sister dreamed it was a girl. Hmmmmm... I kind of thought all along it might be a girl, but now I am thinking boy.

My two youngest children are already very affectionate with the baby. They love to hug my belly and talk to the baby and give it raspberries. They are getting anxious.


September 16, 2004

September 2004
Time of birth: 3:52 PM
Weight: 9 lbs. 1 oz. Height: 22 inches


This is the first picture of Mommy and baby right after birth.



Here are the proud parents.


My Baby
Three hours old


Waiting for Daddy and brothers and sister to take us home.
23 hours old


This picture was taken during a visit
from my parents the first evening home.
30 hours old


September 20, 2004
Although I had pre-labor contractions all summer, they began to get more frequent last weekend. Since I didn't know how much time I had left, I was pleased to be able to finish some last minute jobs. On the weekend, I cut the children’s hair, collected some last minute items to take to the hospital, etc. and on Monday evening, my husband and I cleaned the fridge and filled the kitchen with groceries.

When I awoke at 4:22 AM on Tuesday morning, I suspected things were getting started, but it was hard to be sure. By 6:47 AM, I called my mother to make certain she would be available to watch the children. At 7:10 AM, my husband headed into the mill to get his crew off to work for the day, but I made sure he put my things in the back of the van before he left. He arrived home again around 9:30 AM. My contractions ranged from 3-5 minutes apart all morning. I ate a few things during the morning like a muffin, a roll, and some grapes. Every hour during my labor, I made sure I took my supplements.

Since this was my fourth labor, I was a little concerned that it would go more quickly, so it was difficult to judge when would be a good time to head to the hospital. I took a leisurely bath and shaved my legs and got ready. Later in the morning, the children walked out to my parents' house, and my husband and I drove to the hospital, arriving around noon. We headed up the stairs to the maternity floor where I announced I was in labor. They found my registration papers and birth plan, and the nurse measured me at 4 cm. (I am used to arriving at 9-10 cm, but I guess I played it safe with #4.) It was the same nurse who had attended two of my other births. We were led to the birthing room where we unloaded our things and helped the nurse attach the dusty birthing bar to the bed. She didn't know what direction it faced, and doubted it had been used since my last birth, three years ago. "What are these people thinking?!"

I let the nurse use the fetal monitor for three contractions, and everything was perfect. My husband had fun watching Bob Barker's yodeler climb the mountain each time. My husband and I headed outside and took a long walk around the hospital. It was a lovely, crisp, clear, sunny September day. I brought along my supplement drink for endurance and energy. When we went back into the hospital, my husband met somebody he knew and started talking. The guy saw that I was pregnant, but he didn't seem to believe that delivery was nigh. I finally said, "Well, I have to go," and I walked back up the stairs, leaving my husband. Shortly later, the nurse measured me at 7 cm.

I continued to walk around the room, and for each contraction, I went to the bathroom (to sit). At one point, I had to politely tell the nurse that I didn't want to talk about homeschooling anymore because I needed to concentrate on my labor.

The doctor arrived, and she and the two nurses (one for mother and one for baby) decided to hang out in my room. *eyes rolling* I knew it was getting close, so I decided to have my contractions at the birthing bar. Then the doctor and nurses started talking about public school parent-teacher meetings and why they’re important. I’m thinking, "Good grief! It’s the least a parent should do!" *eyes rolling*.

A few more contractions, TWO pushes, and my baby boy was born.

It took Baby a while to calm down – even at the breast. When the nurse took him to weigh him, he grasped her shirt and my husband had to release his hand so she could put him down. I had expected a nine pound baby, and he was 9 lbs. 1 oz. Finally he started nursing, and did so for an hour and 45 minutes. He brought in his milk before he was 20 hours old. He wanted more than colostrum.

All my births were natural and positive, but my body physically handled this labor, delivery, and post-partum extraordinarily well. I have no doubt that in addition to prayer, it was related to the high amounts of supplements I consumed, especially during the two weeks prior to, during, and following delivery. And I certainly have a very healthy baby.

When we moved to our private room, Baby's first visitors arrived. Grandma and Grandpa brought flowers, and Nana and Papa arrived with our three excited children. My three oldest children were thrilled to meet their little brother.

The following day, Baby and I spent much of the time listening to a poor little newborn crying across the hall. I felt like going and getting it and taking care of it, along with mine. The mother must already be an Ezzo-in-training. A nurse did tell me that they "need" to cry. *eek*

We brought Baby back home at 25 hours after birth. On Thursday, Grandma came to help with the meals and children. My two middle children were somewhat stressed out, but that really only lasted one day. I took Baby outside in the sling to be with his siblings, and he even had his eyes open on the sunny day. I also wore him in his sling each time I checked my email. He felt right at home. Every word of his birth story was typed with him in the sling. Also, on Thursday, a beautiful flower arrangement arrived from my dear friend who lives across the country. Nana came to help on Friday, and my husband was home on the weekend. Every day since we came home, we have had help from the grandmothers as well as visitors bearing gifts.

Why have I had four natural, satisfying births, each one even better than the last? ~ I am just like most mothers. I never exercised during the last EIGHT months of pregnancy. I ate some fried food, desserts, take-out, and junk. I didn't eat enough fruit and vegetables. I am not physically fit – I get out of breath climbing the stairs. What makes my experience different? ~ I WANT and expect natural births. My fear is eliminated, and I have great confidence due to my Christian faith. Another factor is the elimination of fear and a confident mind-set due to educating myself about natural birthing vs. the usually unnecessary drugs and procedures of medical interventions. I work WITH my body, using gravity and relaxation techniques. I take full advantage of the purpose of contractions, and I am very serious about ensuring that my body has certain essential supplements.

Our baby's first three days…
You can take this post as "bragging" or as a devoted mother speaking of her beloved newborn. *grin*

Our baby is an absolute darling! At first I thought he looked most like my oldest son, but now I think he resembles my second son and daughter, probably a little more like my second son’s baby pictures, but I expect he will have brown eyes. Right from the beginning, he has made a ton of different little noises, almost continuously, even in his sleep. His eyes are bright and clear, and he is alert and attentive. He finally gets to see those brothers and sister who have been making all that commotion during the past several months.

The first day home, I propped him up for an hour and a half and he "talked" and watched his family talk to him. His head and eyes turned back and forth toward whoever was talking. When my husband was holding him, and I walked by the door and asked if he was okay, he started rooting when he heard my voice. He is a great nurser. I only had mild engorgement for one day. They say it is unintentional or instinctive, but I still adore those early smiles!! He even has dimples! I have never seen such perfect, smooth skin on a baby. Not a mark on him. And his little head! Only two pushes must have kept it shaped just right! He keeps his hands busy.

His siblings don't get enough turns holding him yet, but they adore him. They love to "babysit." Sometimes he stretches and puts his head back really far, just like my second son used to do. My oldest son always slept with his head thrown way back. Only two things disturb his little life. He does NOT like getting a dirty diaper changed or having his clothes taken off or put on. If he hears his siblings cry, his face gets upset, and he starts to cry in empathy. I can't imagine how mothers and fathers can make the choice to NOT practice attachment parenting. Oh, how much they are missing. Never be afraid to rock your baby and hold your baby and nurse your baby.

We thank God for our baby's perfect health, and his safe transition from the womb to our arms. Our baby is an adorable little bundle. We love him dearly.

Ever since last January, the primary purpose in my publically documenting our baby's journey from conception to birth is to help others recognize the unborn as both human beings and persons. Just as a past president of the United States was used by God to force people to recognize the personhood of African-Americans, and free them from slavery, I pray that our son’s testimony will help people see that UNBORN BABIES ARE PEOPLE, too, and perhaps some will be saved from the torture and death of human abortion.

God bless you, dear son. May you be used by the Lord for His glory. We pray for wisdom and grace to nurture you and your brothers and sister in the Lord.

© 2004 This website and its contents are copyright and intended for educational purposes only. The information, research, experiences, and links contained herein have not been compiled by a physician and should not be considered as medical advice. Opinions expressed in the reference books and links may not in all cases reflect the author's beliefs.

Most of the biological details about fetal development have been copied with permission from AbortionTV.com. Reference materials are also listed at that website. Copyright 2004, No Fear Media Inc.

The pre-natal photos appearing on this website are reproduced under "fair use" terms for the purpose of public education. Although the photos can be found at many sites on the world wide web, I believe credit should be given to the Nine Month Miracle CD ROM, by A.D.A.M. Software, Inc. and the book A Child Is Born by the famous Swedish photographer Lennart Nilsson.